Today June 10, 2019 finally got to see my urologist after two months . Why would anyone be anxious to see him especially since the last visit I was left with a catheter in place this whole time.
For me the uncertainty of any situation has always been nerve wrecking and allows my mind to roam to places it shouldn't. So today was no different in that he was running late and Jill and I were left to just people watch. Each person there had his or her own special issue, each with dealing with what life had bestowed on them. As we continue to watch since my appointment was already 45 minutes late , you couldn't help but notice the aging process and how it affects people differently. Some older than what they actually were and those younger, but each different.
We were then admitted into waiting room P1 where I was asked to undress from the waist down and cover my private part with a paper sheet. while laying on the examining table the anticipation was beginning to set in as to what the out come of today would be. I was given an antibiotic shot to help with the prevention of possible infection and removes the catheter that has been in place these 10 weeks. Once the doctor enters he goes through my charts so that he can focus as to what to look for in the cystosipy that he is about to perform. As he injects the scope up my urethra you can visualize the amount of excess tissue throughout my prostate which now showed me why I have been having the prostate problems for so long. My prostate was approximately 6 times the normal size. As the probe moved into my bladder the doctor quickly spotted what he hoped he wouldn't find was the papillary growth tissue, though minor but still alarming to him. Looking at that picture I couldn't help but seeing this tissue appear to look like translucent corral in the ocean. This was now the explanation as to why whenever I had a urn test performed I would always show microscopic blood within my urn. The fact that larger amounts of blood were being detected with each test , My doctor needed to find out why and thus the need for this test today.
As he tried to comfort Jill who is a cancer register and sees this type of diagnosis often, he continued to say that he couldn't say for sure that it was cancer, but he was certain that it needed to be removed as soon as possible. I then asked him that he has seen this often so what is his best presumption. He responded that he is 70% confident that it is cancer that it is not invasive at this time. He explained the options for surgery and which procedure he would recommend. The complete removal of the prostate is a very long and bloody process whereby he couldn't handle the bladder at the same time. The other was performing a turp on the Prostate shrinking it enough so that he would then be able to remove the papillary growths in the bladder. This would afford me the least amount of down time but could allow the pappilaries to grow again. For my age this could afford me a good fifteen years , but if they should grown sooner then the drastic procedure would have to be performed.
I immediately said schedule the surgery and go with your recommendations, I want this over with. The once uncertainty of not knowing is now alleviated. The handling of what was the unthinkable is now the certainty of what I need to do. As my mother did when I was a baby afflicted with polio , she didn't waste any time but acted. She did everything possible to find out what was wrong with me and then took the necessary steps to afford me a life that to everyone at that point in time thought impossible. I am my mother's and father's son who overcame every obstacle that life put in there way.
This too will pass!
For me the uncertainty of any situation has always been nerve wrecking and allows my mind to roam to places it shouldn't. So today was no different in that he was running late and Jill and I were left to just people watch. Each person there had his or her own special issue, each with dealing with what life had bestowed on them. As we continue to watch since my appointment was already 45 minutes late , you couldn't help but notice the aging process and how it affects people differently. Some older than what they actually were and those younger, but each different.
We were then admitted into waiting room P1 where I was asked to undress from the waist down and cover my private part with a paper sheet. while laying on the examining table the anticipation was beginning to set in as to what the out come of today would be. I was given an antibiotic shot to help with the prevention of possible infection and removes the catheter that has been in place these 10 weeks. Once the doctor enters he goes through my charts so that he can focus as to what to look for in the cystosipy that he is about to perform. As he injects the scope up my urethra you can visualize the amount of excess tissue throughout my prostate which now showed me why I have been having the prostate problems for so long. My prostate was approximately 6 times the normal size. As the probe moved into my bladder the doctor quickly spotted what he hoped he wouldn't find was the papillary growth tissue, though minor but still alarming to him. Looking at that picture I couldn't help but seeing this tissue appear to look like translucent corral in the ocean. This was now the explanation as to why whenever I had a urn test performed I would always show microscopic blood within my urn. The fact that larger amounts of blood were being detected with each test , My doctor needed to find out why and thus the need for this test today.
As he tried to comfort Jill who is a cancer register and sees this type of diagnosis often, he continued to say that he couldn't say for sure that it was cancer, but he was certain that it needed to be removed as soon as possible. I then asked him that he has seen this often so what is his best presumption. He responded that he is 70% confident that it is cancer that it is not invasive at this time. He explained the options for surgery and which procedure he would recommend. The complete removal of the prostate is a very long and bloody process whereby he couldn't handle the bladder at the same time. The other was performing a turp on the Prostate shrinking it enough so that he would then be able to remove the papillary growths in the bladder. This would afford me the least amount of down time but could allow the pappilaries to grow again. For my age this could afford me a good fifteen years , but if they should grown sooner then the drastic procedure would have to be performed.
I immediately said schedule the surgery and go with your recommendations, I want this over with. The once uncertainty of not knowing is now alleviated. The handling of what was the unthinkable is now the certainty of what I need to do. As my mother did when I was a baby afflicted with polio , she didn't waste any time but acted. She did everything possible to find out what was wrong with me and then took the necessary steps to afford me a life that to everyone at that point in time thought impossible. I am my mother's and father's son who overcame every obstacle that life put in there way.
This too will pass!
