It's 4:31 AM and it just hit me as to what I needed to say for this our 36th Christmas together, Life has a way in how to place everything in the Natural Order of Things. To often we get consumed in the "What if " scenarios that neither of us can control.
I've gotten myself scared to the idea that you may not be around and that I would be alone and that is not suppose to be the order that I assumed it would be. I didn't and don't want to experience life like that. That's selfish on my part but that is the fear that I have been keeping to myself.
In the same vein your making yourself sick worrying that now there is a real concern that something maybe wrong with me and that your life, your sense of security is now shaken and uncertain.
These words are not meant to be morbid and sad on a day that is to be joyful and thankful about what we do have and that is each other. This Christmas eve made me look around and see what we have and that is a full life that has taken place right in front of our eyes. We've created a family of friends that have become part of us.
Today, Christmas Day, Jaclyn and Garrick and having Joe and Anna completes the day knowing that our family and real friends our part of our lives. We can't ask for anything more.
The Natural Order of Things is we take this life that has been given to us, make the most of it and enjoy it to the fullest, whether it is in the simplest of forms or some planned out fantasy, it's about living it while we can.
Merry Christmas Sweetheart,
Let's take one day at time, for that is the natural order of things
I've gotten myself scared to the idea that you may not be around and that I would be alone and that is not suppose to be the order that I assumed it would be. I didn't and don't want to experience life like that. That's selfish on my part but that is the fear that I have been keeping to myself.
In the same vein your making yourself sick worrying that now there is a real concern that something maybe wrong with me and that your life, your sense of security is now shaken and uncertain.
These words are not meant to be morbid and sad on a day that is to be joyful and thankful about what we do have and that is each other. This Christmas eve made me look around and see what we have and that is a full life that has taken place right in front of our eyes. We've created a family of friends that have become part of us.
Today, Christmas Day, Jaclyn and Garrick and having Joe and Anna completes the day knowing that our family and real friends our part of our lives. We can't ask for anything more.
The Natural Order of Things is we take this life that has been given to us, make the most of it and enjoy it to the fullest, whether it is in the simplest of forms or some planned out fantasy, it's about living it while we can.
Merry Christmas Sweetheart,
Let's take one day at time, for that is the natural order of things
